Ostracized by Demons

[AeroFX]

cant catch a break, lieing awake,
thinking over every mistake,
either karma got it wrong, or its fate,
someone break in the home,
nothin was stolen but my pregnant wife aint copin,
and soon after we here of complications,
the doctor offering termination,
thank god we didnt take him, up on that,
cos my son born fine, just not breathin,
flat line, he took his time for his chest to move,
then a bastard report us to social services,
claiming we neglectful, shoulda told me face to face,
thats disrespecful, but to be truthful,
if i find out who did that, i will get you,

i'm a man, i'll own up to the tears,
i got no shame to admit i feel pain,
controversy roving in circles again,
driven by hate, looking to hurt you,
its enough to make a heart colder,
time to bury your virtues,
i'm young, but i got responsiblity,
a wife, a son, so why the hostility,

i lived wrong, i lived right,
i lived in control, i almost died from fright,
accident, seems irrelevant for me to mention it,
but head took a knock, nearly died from the shock,
apart from some glimpses, the spark gone,
to add to my ill mentality, bipolar symptoms worse,
i tried to tell the doctor, the nurse,
my head spinnin, it hurts,
i shout more now, filled with anger,
its funny how shit can change ya,

i'm a man, i'll own up to the tears,
i got no shame to admit i feel pain,
controversy roving in circles again,
driven by hate, looking to hurt you,
its enough to make a heart colder,
time to bury your virtues,
i'm young, but i got responsiblity,
a wife, a son, so why the hostility,

youth being schooled in the way,
told earth gone stop spinnin any day,
and we all heading for paradise,
you can taste the freedom when you close your eyes,
sometimes, i couldnt wait till i died,
to escape judgement, incase i wasnt worthy,
afterall, if i was asleep his wrath couldnt hurt me,
stepdad handy with his fists, but he alright with his own kids,
i cant stand this shit, so i snap, beat the fuck out of him,
my finest achievement to date,
turn on nbc, dateline, to catch a regular,
man being ostracized by his demons,